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Hi Linda!

Welcome

I just want to thank you and Victoria for the words you have written here; Very helpful for me at this time...  Reminding me that I am happy when I'm crying out causal grief.  I've become much more aware of the difference between crying about effects vs. crying out the cause, and the difference is Hope and Love are present when I'm crying out the cause, with God's help. 

I've also recently become much more attuned to how humility is a 'happy', 'present' state of being.  It is so much more satisfying, uplifting and blissful to be humble and communicating with God, and overwhelmed, than to be maintaing facade, depleting my self. 

Thank you sisters,
Veronica

Hi Victoria

Thanks for your reply, and nice to meet you too.

At the moment the 'spirit stuff' isn't the first and foremost thing that freaks me out. I haven't come from a religious background, but my spiritual investigations so far have always included the reality of afterlife and mediumship/spirit interaction. BUT, in saying that, Aj's teachings regarding the degree to which spirits are involved with us, and the amount of overcloaking and interference going on is somewhat uncomfortable to confront.

What really gets me is the degree of commitment following this path requires. I may guilty of a bit of 'all or nothing' in the way I do things - but I find it very overwhelming. I had a dream about standing in the ocean with huge waves constantly washing over me..........I knew how to navigate the waves and come out the other side, but it was never ending and very hard work.

I am not sure I can cope with checking every single emotion, every single day. Does that make me self centered and narcissistic? AJ talks of spending hours and weeks crying over things, I understand that release removes the emotion forever, but what sort of life is that? Is he happy? Is Mary happy? I know that video recordings are only a snap shot, but in so many of them, he has been crying, angry, dealing with stuff, being attacked by and he's way ahead of us!!

I don't have doubts about the teachings(predominantly in my mind at this stage that is ). Logically they make sense. I have noticed the patterns of the laws in life, so having them articulated and confirmed was so reassuring. I just don't know if I have the energy to follow this path..........

Linda

Hi Linda,

Great to hear from you and thank you for telling us a little about yourself. I think we all were totally addicted to divine truth videos when we first encountered them; so hungry were we for truth!

Are you from a religious background? What is it that freaks you out about the teachings (I know all the spirit stuff is pretty confronting!)

Victoria xx

schizophrenia, did you hear voices? If so what did they say? I didn't hear voices, mine was more a bout of mania; not sleeping for nights and nights and then having very strange ideas about things and some hallucinations. I know that this was total the result of not feeling my grief and fear about various things, choosing instead to fake 'courage' and 'everything being fine'. I actually consciously shut down my emotions by reasoning that a person could fully function by logic alone (I was 18 when I did this) as AJesus has said when you don't feel emotions you invite all sorts of spirit influence.

So I guess that means you're probably quite a clear medium? Have you experimented with this?

When I was psychotic, I would also be convinced of weird things, and would behave very energetically or assertively, which is manic, and not sleep normally...

I too know that things have been triggered by not feeling my emotions, particularly relating to some sexual/romantic pain with a girl, and also long stored pain of my parents divorce when I was 12... There's still a lot I have to feel, and I still struggle with my addiction to get out of my own life, which maybe is a characteristic of all addiction, avoidance of reality...

I did hear voices, and I still hear voices often. So yes, I'm pretty mediumistic.. I wouldn't say I'm a clear medium yet, because I often get spirits that impersonate AJ I believe.


I have only experimented with channeling once I think, when I was praying in a christian group. I felt I was channeling a loving spirit to say some things out loud during prayer... For the rest I just have conversations in my head often, with people I feel are outside of me.

Just wondering if the law of attraction is ramping up for people going to the assistance groups or is there a general ramp up going on for people at least working to be on the path?