The Way Forum

Amanda I found what you had to say very useful.  The pushing and self punishing has never worked for me either, your comment was a good reminder; what I would add is that it is also always a harder slog when I am determined to be self reliant.  I found it useful to give myself permission to not feel anything, I woke up after reading your suggestion and felt relief when I thought I don't have to feel anything which helped me choose to feel more often, go figure.

Were you saying something useful or were you commenting for the sake of it?

I always loved that song.  I re read the words after Victoria's comment and could see how it could be about self harm so I googled it, seems it was written about heroin addiction.  Never occurred to me all the times I've listened to it, shows really how our "interpretation" is filtered through our emotions and addictions.  I feel though, it doesn't matter, one line can be the perfect trigger for feeling.

I haven't read this for a long time, thanks for putting it up Victoria.  For me I feel overwhelmed when I think how long Nero's soul mate waited for him loving him all the while, I can't imagine my capacity to endure the suffering of Nero or longing as his soul did for such a long time.  For me a big part of this message is about the torment that Nero felt in compensation for the evil things he did on earth while he was not able to call on God's love to help him him feel repentance and remorse.   Many times in this process I have realized how trapped I have become in compensation and self punishment, I do some processing, get stuck not wanting to further until the pain becomes unbearable and do some more.  I keep wanting to leave God out of the equation even though it always works better when I include him/her.  Nero's message has reminded me again that I have a choice about which way to go and that help is available to me if I am prepared to seek it.

Hi Lena, what you said about "Insidious" helped me understand my reaction to "The Stoning of Soraya M" The first time I watched it I felt spirits fears.  It took me two years to watch it again, the whole time telling myself to breathe and stay in body but I just went blank.  So I think I went into shock and need a bit more work before I can deal with that one.  Thanks for that.
(My first post, very weird having all these little face icons making conflicting expressions at me!!!!)