The Way Forum

I am sure its as easy as it sounds from your posts- I know I have believed then I have doubted then I have believed again- someone very wise said to me that if doubt comes after belief then the truth hasn't yet entered the soul- I am having a lot of difficulty with many aspects of the divine love path and doubts.......

My brother Peter invited me to come hear a guy talk at his place in Eudlo. I had just returned from a 6 month teaching post in Outback Australia, my Dad was dying and life was pretty ordinary. I had been a Mormon in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and had left that religion to keep searching and I was a single parent raising my 2 boys alone and had been single for the previous 16 years. I could not have realised how deeply I needed the Love from hearing the Divine Truth. Peter said to me, this guy says he's Jesus and his information is pretty incredible. I went to that talk pretty unawares but open hearted and longing to know Gods way and what God wanted of me because I had said so often in my prayers "God I want to work for you; show me which is the way to go..."and I have been attending AJ's things ever since. My life was troubled...but sprinkled throughout were moments when my guide told me fantastic truth and wisdom that were aha moments, one of those moments came in the form of a dream, where I sat with Jesus in my lounge room and talked with him like my best friend, that dream gave me the longing to know Jesus personally and the belief it was possible, but at that time, long before I had met AJ I just believed it was possible and it was going to happen but I didnt know how, until the very first time I talked with AJ and shook his hand. I have not achieved this friendship I had hoped for as I still have too much anger and projections at him, but Ill get through it hopefully. Its good I am writing this right now, because I need to reflect upon this anger I have and especially lately and how I could be living in so much more gratitude than I am. The man I believe is my soulmate and the love of my life came up to me at the end of that very first talk and said to me he liked my questions, I was flattered- I liked him straight away, and though I have been an awful soul partner and we are having time in separate lives; my heart springs with Joy when I feel how wonderful and strengthening this is for me, to have had Graham come at the very very beginning. Even if we discover I am wrong and we are not soulmates still Grahams prescence in my life has been awesome, difficult, life changing, confronting, wonderful, painful, etc etc little giggle, hes probably reading this from his place and groaning at me.
Im not sure how much more to write except its been nearly 6 years, well 6 years in June for me and Im really still right back at the very beginning as I have lost focus so many times with so much spirit influence and anyways enough for now, thankyou for asking about my story, with love to you all- Jenn