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schizophrenia, did you hear voices? If so what did they say? I didn't hear voices, mine was more a bout of mania; not sleeping for nights and nights and then having very strange ideas about things and some hallucinations. I know that this was total the result of not feeling my grief and fear about various things, choosing instead to fake 'courage' and 'everything being fine'. I actually consciously shut down my emotions by reasoning that a person could fully function by logic alone (I was 18 when I did this) as AJesus has said when you don't feel emotions you invite all sorts of spirit influence.

So I guess that means you're probably quite a clear medium? Have you experimented with this?

When I was psychotic, I would also be convinced of weird things, and would behave very energetically or assertively, which is manic, and not sleep normally...

I too know that things have been triggered by not feeling my emotions, particularly relating to some sexual/romantic pain with a girl, and also long stored pain of my parents divorce when I was 12... There's still a lot I have to feel, and I still struggle with my addiction to get out of my own life, which maybe is a characteristic of all addiction, avoidance of reality...

I did hear voices, and I still hear voices often. So yes, I'm pretty mediumistic.. I wouldn't say I'm a clear medium yet, because I often get spirits that impersonate AJ I believe.


I have only experimented with channeling once I think, when I was praying in a christian group. I felt I was channeling a loving spirit to say some things out loud during prayer... For the rest I just have conversations in my head often, with people I feel are outside of me.

Just when this subject was being discussed, Jesus and Mary recorded and uploaded this video, where they go into the dynamics of **** in depth:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QlOUMViGHy8



I really think injuries regarding intimacy is really spot on, at least for me it is.

Hey Jonas,

that's a nice surprise to see you here. How did you find the forum? I wouldn't say we know each other through Guido, by the way, we went to school together for a short period of time... But nevermind

Very nice to read your story of being a seeker, and also experimenting with some of the teachings, such as becoming more truthful. If you really experience the fear when you do it, you know you're really changing something. Very nice that you've tried it. Hurray

Beside being honest to people around you, it's probably even harder to be honest to yourself, at all times. At least I've found that much more difficult, to never hide away from, or gloss over the dark feelings in my own soul.

The dream where somebody said "does a match know it's a match before it's lit?", when we talked about it, sounded to me like "experience is a crucial ingredient of knowledge" in particular in relation to God and Gods Love.

Anyway Jonas, very nice to see you here, welcome to the forums, and don't hesitate to ask the questions you want to, because you'll not receive judgment here, I believe.

Hey,

Thank you for creating this Forum, I think it is really well organised and could become a thriving hub for DT discussions.

What kind of mental health problems did you used to suffer from? and how have the DT teachings helped you? have you seen a big change?

I am super inquisitive so I hope you feel ok to say ' mind your own business!'

xx

I don't mind answering any questions. The only reason I've waited so long to respond is that I'm super busy with my new apartment. I have to paint, and make sure all the other things are going correctly and so on. I've really over-asked of myself the last week or so. On top of that I've encountered some emotional problems, including some bad sleep state experiences.

The mental health problems I suffered from are called schizophrenia. I had my first psychosis when I was 17, and one again when I was 19, two shortly after each other when I was 21, and one when I was 23. Now I'm 26 and seem to have broken the pattern at least. For me just knowing the truth that these interactions are real, not epiphenomena of a malfunctioning brain or whatever, i.e. knowing that spirits exist, already has helped me immensely. Then realizing the connection between the spirit attractions and the emotions in my soul also helped. I think all my addictions, including my addiction to avoid my life by becoming psychotic, were about fleeing from my feelings. Rather then feeling them, doing something to avoid them, whether it was drug addiction, gambling or morally peripheral sexuality, or avoidance of life as a whole by becoming psychotic, avoidance was always my modus operandi.

I've made a lot of better choices since encountering divine truth, but I know I still have a lot of feelings to deal with and still make bad choices and decisions often.

As requested by Victoria, I split off the off-topic posts in her introduction thread, to a new thread where we can discuss AJ's identity, if we so desire.

Hey sisters and brothers,

I discoverd Jesus and Mary about a year ago after hearing them being spoken about on the radio. I had a strong desire to look into them more and googled them. After about 5 minutes of one of his talks I had a strong feeling AJ is Jesus and I have never really doubted it since.

For me there are only 3 options as to his identity:

1, he is mad
2, he is bad
3, he is who he says he is.

Since I reject 1 and 2 on evidence and logic I can only accept 3.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjPBkATHlgM

You're welcome. By the way, you can also do it when you're in a reply. Scroll down, where you can see the history of the thread. To the right of each post is an "Insert Quote" button.